I can’t believe that this is my last journal. I’m glad to be done with it but still worried about other assignments that I need to get done before graduation. I’m confident I’ll be ready by June however I’m not too sure if I’ll be ready emotionally. Although things are getting better at home I’m still worried about leaving my parents and siblings. I’m happy with my choice of going to Fresno because it gives me peace of mind knowing I’ll only be an hour away from my family. Not much has happened since my last journal other than working to finish all my classes in time. I’m excited to be going to grad nite this year, I’ve never been to Disneyland so this will be a first for me. I’m also excited about going on two other trips for some clubs I’m apart of. However most of my attention is on school at the moment. I’ve been working with my chemistry teacher and was able to finish first semester a couple of weeks ago and am now focusing on finishing economics and first semester English. After catching up in these classes I plan on directing my attention towards math because I still have three MTs to finish. Slowly but surely I will finish all my classes and I’m excited for the day I finish and can focus on spending the rest of my time with my family before I go to college.
All I can say is wow! This past year has been one for the books. My first semester of senior year went by a little too quick. I’ve tried so hard to do my best in all my classes especially with everything going on at home. My only concern right now is not being able to finish my classes in time for graduation. However, I am determined to finish this year stronger than ever. I’ve been through a lot to just give up now.
My last winter break as a senior didn’t go quite as I expected. Most of my winter break was spent in the hospital with my dad. Due to the previous health issues my dad’s been dealing with and our house burning down it’s definitely been a difficult year and on that will remain with me forever. With all that we’ve dealt with my family has become closer. I’ve realized a lot of thing, but most importantly, 2015 has made me realize who really cares about me. It also made me realize life can change in a heartbeat, when we least expect it. Big decisions have been made lately. I’ve been really nervous because these decisions will hopefully lead me to my success. I got accepted to all my top four CSU’s which are; CSU Fresno, CSU Bakersfield, CSUB Channels Island, and CSU Fullerton. I’ve decided to attend Fresno State, I didn’t want to be far away from home because of my father’s health conditions and because of the fire my family has endured. I decided I wanted to be here to support my family as they rebuild my family home. I help as much as I can at home with my father, he’s been such a good person to everyone and I am beyond thankful for all the love and support we’ve received from family and friends. It’s been really tough year but I’m trying the best to overcome these hard experiences and just hoping for the best. The end of my Thanksgiving break and it has really been a crazy ride. Everything going on at home and still have to worry about passing all of my classes. I’ve missed a lot of school; do to all of my dad’s appointments and all that is required for him to successfully recover at home. I am very nervous because I’ve gotten the letter from my councilor warning me about not being able to walk in our graduation ceremony. I’ve been falling behind in multiple classes but the one that worries me more is Economics because we only have one semester to finish and it worries me to think I will not being able to graduate.
The only thing I have missing for Econ. Is complete a make-up project and try and catch up as soon as possible. English is also one of my concerns I need to focus on completing my senior website. I am now finished with biology and have become a peer tutor for Mr. Coles’ biology class. This gives me an opportunity to help the kids that are still working on biology. I also find this period very useful because I have chemistry the period before so whatever I haven’t completed or any test I have to retake I can do during this period. I can ask Mr. Coles for help and complete whatever I haven’t finished and not fall behind. After working with the special Education students I have become very fond of them. I have even considered going into the special Education field. This has to be one of my favorite classes I have had this year. I love helpings out and creating very special memories that I will cherish forever! I have to try hard to not fall behind and set a good example for the kids, they look up to me and I wouldn’t let them down. I have learned so much and gain so much experience from helping out the students and creating bonds among ourselves. Having kids tell you how much they at appreciate you has to be one of the greatest rewords. I am ready to end this year and semester strong! I am finally a senior! I cannot believe that this is my last year in high school. I am beyond excited to graduate and begin college next all. This year I am taking Chemistry, Advanced Art, Economics, and English. I am also finishing up biology and tutoring peers for two periods. So far I’ve enjoyed all seven classes, especially my teacher’s aide periods.
During these two periods I am able to help special education students and I absolutely love helping them! I have even began considering becoming a special education teacher. Although school is very exciting I am also nervous about keeping up with all of my classes because a week before school ended last year, my father endured a heart attack and went through many physical hardships including open heart surgery. For a month and about two weeks my mother and I lived in the hospital and were at my father’s side. My sister had to watch over and take responsibility of caring for my two brothers. Needless to say it was a very difficult summer for my family but now that my father’s regaining his strength I am confident that I will be able to focus on my academics. As of right now my home life is a bit hectic but I wouldn’t have it any other way. The only things that matter at this point is having my father home, my family is at ease and I finally feel like I can breathe. Going into this year I feel ready to complete my classes, enjoy my last year, and prepare for college. |